| Moving On |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|12:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | RAHAB! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
Today is your day
The day to turn it all around
You've been on a search
Now use what You've found
Out about yourself; About your life
You dont have to worry anymore
Cause it's gonna be alright.
You don't need anything to get you through your days
Don't ever give in cause you know there's other ways
when you've had all you can take; You've had enough
keep on pulling through and don't give up
You've seen so much
But don't ever regret
What you've learned
And never forget
There's people who care
People that love you
And know that we'll always be there |
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| sKiTzOniA |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|11:52 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | REHAB! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
There's whispers in the trees
Fighting among leaves
and i know they're out to get me
While i'm lying in my bed
I can't hear what's being said
cause they're so loud the voices in my head
So i've come to understand
All the beauties of quick sand
The feeling of inpending doom
While they're laughing in another room
I can here your cuery thought
But I can't decide whether or not
You want me to cause me pain
I'm always screaming " i'm not insane "
Are you talking with them about me
Whats said what could it be
I've felt this way for so long
And now i'm just trying to stay calm
Now I don't know what to expect
When choosing the reality i accept
But are those really my choices?
Or the decisions of the voices? |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|11:45 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | REHAB! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
I don't care anymore
I just don't care
This situation just aint fair
I want to leave
I need to go
This place has got me feelin low
I want a cigerette
Lend me a square
Before I start to curse and swear
So i have 2 rings
Who gives a fuck?
I Think I've had enough.
Nothing ever goes my way
Just leave me the fuck alone
I wanna fight, I want love
I just wanna fucking go home. |
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| Just a Feeling |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|11:37 am] |
So sick, But sick of what?
I think i've had enough.
Same faces, It's all a fog.
An endless search for love.
Give me attention.
Please say my name.
i've brought you nothing.
But fucking shame.
Am I looking for answers?
Or ignoring the questions?
I don't want your advice or your suggestions.
Am I looking for answers?
Or ignoring the questions?
I don't want your advice or your suggestions.
Can't escape from who I am.
I try, But never can.
Feel washed out, Feel used.
I'm lost and so confused.
All the times i can't say.
I don't remember everything.
These scars stay, there's no healing.
But it's always just a feeling.
This feeling is so intense.
I've stopped making sense.
Sit and stare at starry ceilings.
But I must remember.
It's just a feeling.
Am I looking for answers?
Or ignoring the questions?
I don't want your advice or your suggestions.
Am I looking for answers?
Or ignoring the questions?
i don't want your advice or your suggestions. |
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| in a rehab...how the fuck? |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|11:14 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | REHAB! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | quiet | ] |
In fucking rehab....fuck man! anyone who wants to chat with me. i'll be gladly to here from you. Here's a song this girl and i made while we were here. =]
In a rehab?
How the fuck.
I'm addicted?
What the fuck
Yeah i overdosed!
Who gives a fuck
Don't bring me to meetings
I don't want a chip!
Apple Martini?
Give me a sip
No hold up
I'll chug that shit! |
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| whoa....just whoa... |
[May. 29th, 2006|11:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Drop Dead gorgeous- dressed for friend requests | ] |
i look back and i see all my journals i've written....and they're very depressing....like seriously....it's kinda scary how you look back at things and then you're just liek whoa! i was totally into drugs and i didnt even realize how bad i was into them until now...holy shit! i did fucking everything! wow...i was a big druggy lol....and how i loved erin so much...ha! her and i broke up...like months ago....i'm moving to north palm beach next year on the water....i think...ugh! omg! it's been so long! the last stupid blog i put...ugh so stupid but yeah. i got sick and tired of writing in here before cuz then people talked shit in school and all that stuff and yeah i was pissed....so now i'm just like whatever i don't care. and i'm talking to someone else now...she's real cute and funny lol. so yeah. my life is going straight...well i'm still gay but i mean like...going the way i like it lol.and i've been chillin with my best friend alex!! who i love so mucho!!! well yeah...i think this will probably be my last blog entry i will ever put to this.......i've changed into a better person than i was it's hella good! AlOha.
-Hannah |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|01:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  erin on phone | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Silence is golden | ] |
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Erin's Sushi Muffin Hunny Bun Bun Bun
Birthday: Feb.28, 1989
Birthplace: miami
Current Location: miami...soon to 2 cali with my baby
Eye Color: greenish-blue
Hair Color: original: blondish.brownis. redish streaks
Height: 5'7
Right Handed or Left Handed:left
Your Heritage: Italian!!
The Shoes You Wore Today: Kenny anderson
Your Weakness: moaning
Your Fears: sharks and the chucky doll!!
Your Perfect Pizza: a thin and crispy vegetariam pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: make desiree's life miserable!!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: "is n~e one here?"
Your Best Physical Feature: my eye's
Your Bedtime: when i fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory: when desiree and i were best friends
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither wendy's BIATCH....for shittles!!
Single or Group Dates: group dates!!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Do you Smoke: yup
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: i think i sing professionaly......but only in the shower.
Do you Shower Daily: yea
Have you Been in Love: i am right now erin <<3333
Do you want to go to College: yea
Do you want to get Married: yea cali baby!! where it's legal!!
Do you belive in yourself: yea
Do you get Motion Sickness: sea sick yea..
Do you think you are Attractive: i'm dead sexy byatch!!
Are you a Health Freak: fuck no!!
Do you get along with your Parents: yea...i love my parents
Do you like Thunderstorms: yea...but only if i'm with that special someone <<3 erin!
Do you play an Instrument: yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yea
In the past month have you Smoked: yea
In the past month have you been on Drugs: yea
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yea(=
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: cali rolls byatch!!
In the past month have you been on Stage: yea
In the past month have you been Dumped: no thank god!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yea
Ever been called a Tease: yea
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: yea (it was an accident i swear!!!)
How do you want to Die: don't matter as long as i'm with my baby
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: dolphin trainer @ sea world woot woot
What country would you most like to Visit: Italy
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color: doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair: doesn't matter
Height: same height
Weight: doesn't matter
Best Clothing Style: doesn't matter
Number of Drugs I have taken: between 4-6
Number of CDs I own: umm...i guess a lot
Number of Piercings: 4
Number of Tattoos: nada =(
Number of things in my Past I Regret: meeting desiree....i got attached 2 her and i still am...and i just wish i never met her cuz she be fucking with my life. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|12:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Silence is golden | ] |
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
-Hannah
p.s
i love erin <333!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|08:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  fire in my pants | ] |
| [ | music |
| | staind- outside | ] |
friday- went to sunset place with erin, val, adrianne, paul, hitler and some other few people. saw this movie called be cool. it was ok although i really wasn't paying n~e attention 2 the movie haha. the movie was "funny" lol.
saturday- went back to sunset place. it was erin and i's anniversary..we saw this movie concentine which was reallyg good. and then we all just hung out.
sunday- went to some girls house today...and she is really hott! lol yea and that is erin!! my love!! lol went to the park...just basically hung out. and erin's dad is an asshole!! and erin gave me fire in my pants 2 day!
-Hannah
<3333 erin!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 3rd, 2005|04:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | horny | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the bled | ] |
just 15 days... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 1st, 2005|08:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | fire in my pants lol | ] |
| [ | music |
| | erin on phone | ] |
i love erin |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|03:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
everything is just so fucked up... |
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| Completly Bored.. |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|03:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Underoath- I don't feel receptive to | ] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Stoner
2) Cutie
3) Beani Baby
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE/HAVE HAD:
1) panthergurl 00
2) xxsikopathxx
3) xsikopathxx
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) My sexiness
2) my skin
3) My eyes
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) smoke too much
2) i make a lot of mistakes!
3) i can never keep a really good relaltionship
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1) i'm a cracker and i'm proud of it!!
2) italian
3) **
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) Sharks
2) gothic people
3) this entry
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) My Music
2) my guitar
3) sleeep!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) tight blue jeans
2) quicksilver sweater
3) my head
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment):
1) STORY OF THE YEAR!
2) Blink-182
3) Atreyu
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment):
1) blink 182- always <<i love you erin
2) something corporate- fall
3) commited- perfect
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1) at least fuck my gf i mean come on!
2) get as much weed as i can!
3) drive to my gf's house every day!
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1) Romance
2) naked sex! << haha meg
3) being funny
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1) i love erin
2) i love myself <<< i've learned that it's good health to love yourself =)
3) i'm really a guy but they just don't know it yet ;)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Eyes
2) 6 pack or nice abs
3) face
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) Stop Smoking that mary jane
2) dump my gf
3) tell my mom i'm bi or whoever...
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) talking to erin <3
2) making people laugh
3) guitar
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) fucking make out with erin already!!
2) get this live journal entry shit over with!
3) watch "saw"
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Actress
2) Musican
3) Scientist (training dolphins in the summer time)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) AMPSTERDAM BITCHES!!!!
2) california! << erin =P
3) jamaica!
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1) Phillipe'
2) mauricio'
3) Sophia
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) at least fuck my gf i mean come on!
2) get lots of fucking ounces of weed!!
3) go sky diving!!
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1) i like girls..
2) i play video games..
3) i'm into cars..
THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK
1) wear nice clothes..
2) put on eye liner to look purty
3) i like guys..lol
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Laura
2. Gladys
3. Angelica (maria lol) |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|07:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | taking back sunday- cute without the e | ] |
wow...i love erin lol
-Hannah
<3 Erin |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|04:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | (Movie) texas chainsaw masecre | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|10:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  scared | ] |
| [ | music |
| | NOTHING!!!!!! WTF IS DA POINT OF ASKING DIS F**KING QUESTION | ] |
I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! I LOVE RACHEAL! |
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| uh....convo between gladys and i.. |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|01:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | slipknot- blister exists | ] |
PantherGurl 00 (1:34:53 AM): is it true that aliens on the ufo'
PantherGurl 00 (1:34:58 AM): like....smoke weed
PantherGurl 00 (1:35:11 AM): that's y they so skinn
GladysTheStrange (1:35:26 AM): ...
GladysTheStrange (1:35:28 AM): -shakes head-
PantherGurl 00 (1:35:37 AM): lol
PantherGurl 00 (1:35:47 AM): i wanna dance with aliens
GladysTheStrange (1:36:06 AM): LMAO
PantherGurl 00 (1:36:13 AM): =)
PantherGurl 00 (1:36:21 AM): like i said b4 i felt like dacing lol
PantherGurl 00 (1:36:26 AM): dancing*
PantherGurl 00 (1:36:40 AM): i've always wanted to do that
GladysTheStrange (1:36:53 AM): lmao
PantherGurl 00 (1:36:57 AM): lol
GladysTheStrange (1:37:17 AM): Look at my profile
PantherGurl 00 (1:37:20 AM): or lie smoke out or somehitng
PantherGurl 00 (1:37:21 AM): ok
PantherGurl 00 (1:37:30 AM): lmao
PantherGurl 00 (1:37:37 AM): i love it!
PantherGurl 00 (1:38:26 AM): maybe the aliens can break dance
PantherGurl 00 (1:38:32 AM): like micheal jackson!
PantherGurl 00 (1:38:47 AM): they have no dick or penis!
GladysTheStrange (1:38:51 AM): lmao
PantherGurl 00 (1:39:10 AM): so when they spread they're legs they won't have n~e thign to look at!
PantherGurl 00 (1:39:11 AM): lol
PantherGurl 00 (1:39:28 AM): it will look like a vagina!
PantherGurl 00 (1:39:36 AM): cuz it will look like nothing is there
PantherGurl 00 (1:40:48 AM): that's why they so cool...they don't need to use a condom...cuz they don't have a penis or a vagina or a dick or a pussy!!! |
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| Story Time |
[Jan. 16th, 2005|11:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | buzzed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | eminem- soilder | ] |
Me: I didn't mean to kill him.
Gladys: Kill who?!?
Me: -laughs-
Gladys: Whoa... Who did you kill?
Me: Bob the Builder.
Gladys: Hahah!! How?
Me: Well, i was hanging out with him smoking and he starts to take off his shirt. He had like 6 shirts though and he kept taking them of f anf off. Finally, he took the last one off and boy, was he hairy! He was so hairy that he looked like a bear. He started to atcually look liek a bear to me and i got scared. I was also cold and i though ti could use a coat. So i got the nearest AX and threw it at him. It cut off his head and i got my coat.
Gladys: HAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!
Hannah: Yeah man, that's why he's never on anymore.
Gladys: Hehe, and what's the moral of the story?
Me: That it's wrong to kill bears but not if you need a coat... or a rug.
Gladys: HAHAHAHA!!
The End
-Hannah |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|09:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  geeky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
"Every Night"
[Intro]
I remember those fun times we had together,
I remember those secrets we have told eachother,
I remember that night we both cried together,
I will always remember everything....We had together.
[Verse 1]
Just thinking about you makes me wanna cry,
I think about you every night in my dreams hoping
we be together again. But i have this gut feeling
that aint ever gonna happen.
I look at your picture every night, then all of a sudden
i start seeing blurry. And clear drop of sadness
goes down!!
[chorus]
Will you ever miss me when i'm fucking dead!?
Do you even fucking care about me anymore!?
I wish that you've never fucking existed!
How the fuck can you put me through all this pain!?
You put me through fucking misery every fuking night!!
[Verse 2]
I feel like you don't see me at all.
I thought i was invincible but i guess i was wrong,
i'm invisible to you. I feel like you just fucking see
right through me! All you care about now
is that stupid bitch that's you new best friend!
I feel like you fucking replaced me with her!!
You stupid bitch! Now i just fucking despise you
with a fucking true passion!!
Just get the fuck away from me! I hope you die
and fucking burn in hell!!
[Chorus]
Will you ever miss me when i'm fucking dead!?
Do you even fucking care about me anymore!?
I wish that you've never fucking existed!
How the fuck can you put me through all this pain!?
You put me through fucking misery every fuking night!!
[Verse 3]
You meant so much to me.
My heart as been ripped out and stepped on!
Whatever i don't give a fuck anymore!
Cuz i'm fuckin over this shit!
Just leave me alone and let me be!
[Chorus]
Will you ever miss me when i'm fucking dead!?
Do you even fucking care about me anymore!?
I wish that you've never fucking existed!
How the fuck can you put me through all this pain!?
You put me through fucking misery every fuking night!!
it's kinda a hate kinda song i dunno...i think it kinda sux. but write down the comments to tell me what you think. if you will do that i would really appreciate it..thanks.
-Hannah |
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